All I have now is my bolster and red bean ):

At the end of the day, I find myself still at the same spot.
No matter what I do, what I say, how much I try, it will not change.

I didn't wait for this state. No, I didn't.
If you can see, it's my turn now.
All you have to do is just allow me to.

I can't help but wonder if you still remember the pw.

There seems to be reminders almost everywhere.
It's funny how that the thought of them keep me alive, especially when I am reminded..
In fact, I think it's the only thing that makes me feel alive now.

I lose all my concentration.
I couldn't get things done at all.
How come you cannot see how easy it is, just to fall and lean.
I'll not let you fall.